Hey world? Nice to see you again

Would you believe it, I feel almost normal again 😀 I hope I don’t tempt fate there, but the pain in my legs and feet is subsiding and the general achy feeling in my chest and arms is dying down.

To celebrate, Stephen and I walked Emma to school.  Well, actually I stopped halfway as I’m not taking any risks going into the playground right now with all those mucus dripping, coughing, hand wiping kiddywinks all around me – I mean, I can literally imagine the quantity of germs.  I still have a couple of days left of antibiotics to take, so no – I’m no danger lover, I’m more your ‘precautionary’ type.

So, my last update mentioned another visit to Christies on Sunday.  Again, me just being precautious because my temperature was creeping up again.  And this time I wasn’t taking any chances.  It was confirmed to me by my oncologist that the two infections I ‘endured’ last month were (1) Gastroenteritis and (2) Ear infection (which had swollen lymph gland in throat).  So can you blame me for getting a little hyper paranoid about germs?

Had an ultra sound last Friday, but don’t get the results until the 13th October.  I feel positive about it, I mean, it had already gone down a little on my last ultra sound, so hopefully, it’s still reducing.  I will let you know…

Getting ready for the ultra-sound to start (photo courtesy of Stephen Farnsworth who has no shame!!) 

So what’s happened since I last did a proper update? Stephens birthday was on the 23 September.  Poor thing – apart from Emma and I making him a chocolate cake, it can’t have been the best! I promised I would make it up to him next year (what else could I do? He’s lucky I remembered! 😁).  So because chemo was delayed for a week due to everything that happened, my oncologists appointment fell on Stephens birthday too, so off we went and got stuck in terrible traffic and was late! So yep, not the best birthday for him.

We are about 2-3 weeks away from a house move, we have a ‘SOLD’ sign outside the house, but as per the usual, solicitors dragging their heels and slowing things down.  My mother in law Ethel, is beside herself with excitement, she just wants us all gone now.  I kinda know exactly how she feels… I kinda want something gone too!!! 😜

A friend of mine told me about a book called ‘The Secret’, it’s a self-help book about positive thinking.  Rather than praying to God (if your not the religious type), you talk to the universe.  You ask, you believe, you receive.  So I’m giving that a shot at the moment, last months infections, hospital visit, endless injections and above all the amount of pain did a brilliant job on my mental wellbeing, I went from someone who almost acted like I didn’t have bc at all, to someone very scared, fearful and weepy.  Apparently, after speaking with a wonderful psychologist at Christies, I’d hit my first major hurdle and allowed fear to creep in.  I’m now a lot stronger again, in fact, if anything, I’m pissed now – I will not allow it to get into my head again.  I do a chant to myself every morning – YOU WILL BE BEATEN, I WILL FIGHT YOU, I WILL NEVER GET CANCER AGAIN AND I WILL LIVE A LONG, HEALTHY LIFE.

Two fingers up to you cancer – Go to hell.